It's all mush.

Things I learned today:

-The friends I think I have will not make the effort for me that I make for them. I spent a whole lot of time on things for today and close to nobody showed up
-I will not be hurt as much as I was tonight by my mother
-I will turn to Mike more often when I need someone
-I will see someone about my panic attacks
-I love Aaron more then ever and I don't care what anyone thinks